Year 33: Still Standing

A Wildflower Expressions Blog

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On December 21st, I step into my thirty third year of life, and before I move forward, I need to pause. Not because I am tired, although yes, but because the woman I am now deserves to look back and say we made it.

From 2021 to now, life did not just test me. It tried to dismantle me. Three mental breaks. Three moments where everything inside me said I cannot do this anymore. And yet, I did.

I rebuilt from scratch more times than I can count. Not the pretty kind of rebuilding with vision boards and matching planners. The kind where you are on the floor, praying with tears in your eyes, holding yourself together long enough to show up for your children the next morning. The kind where survival comes before dreams, and healing comes in inches instead of leaps.

Perseverance became my language. Not loud. Not flashy. Just steady.

I stayed standing.

That is the legacy I want my children to know. Not perfection. Not ease. Not a story without scars. But this truth. No matter what tried to break me, I did not stay down. I fought hard to keep my life and my family intact. I chose love when it would have been easier to choose numbness. I chose growth when bitterness was knocking loudly. I chose to stay.

There is a quiet power in that.

Thirty three is known in numerology as a master number. It represents compassion, spiritual alignment, and purposeful service. It carries the energy of teaching through experience and leading by example. And honestly, that tracks. This season of life is no longer about proving anything. It is about being. Being rooted. Being intentional. Being present.

Let us be clear. I am spiritually evolved, but I will still cry over spilled coffee and lose my patience when everyone talks at once. Growth does not cancel humanity. It simply gives it better boundaries.

At thirty three, my energy feels different. Softer and stronger at the same time. Like a wildflower that has learned it does not need perfect soil to bloom. It only needs persistence. I trust life more now. I trust myself more. I understand that breaks do not mean failure. Sometimes they are invitations to rebuild wiser, stronger, and more aligned.

I carry gratitude for every version of me that refused to give up. The woman who stayed when leaving felt easier. The mother who held it together when she felt undone. The soul who kept choosing light, even on the days it felt dim.

Year thirty three is not about becoming someone new. It is about honoring who I have already become.

Still standing.

Still blooming.

Still here.

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Closing Affirmations

I affirm that my perseverance is my power.

I affirm that every challenge I survived shaped my strength.

I affirm that my children will know resilience because they watched me live it.

I affirm that I am aligned with the energy of growth, compassion, and purpose.

I affirm that I am allowed to bloom at my own pace.

I affirm that I am standing in my season with grace, grit, and gratitude.

Year thirty three, I am ready for you.