Funny Thing About Envy…👀

As always, I find myself talking about the hard things… the ones most people don’t want to look at in themselves. And envy is one of those things for me. It’s uncomfortable to admit, but healing has never been about avoiding what’s hard. It’s about facing it with a different perspective. It’s about asking, what’s the lesson here? instead of letting those thoughts take over. Because I refuse to let the enemy win in places God is trying to grow me.

There’s a funny thing about envy. It doesn’t come in loud or obvious. It shows up quietly while I’m scrolling, while I’m watching someone else step into something I’ve been praying for. And somehow, I can be holding something good in my own life… and still feel like it’s not enough. That’s the part that humbles me. How quickly I can forget what God has already placed in my hands.

I’ve caught myself questioning things I shouldn’t. Wondering if I’m behind, wondering why it hasn’t happened for me yet. And in those moments, I realize it’s deeper than comparison. It’s a heart check. Because envy will have you believing that God is doing more for someone else than He is for you. And that’s simply not true.

God doesn’t work in comparison. He doesn’t run out of blessings. What He has for me is mine, and what He’s doing in my life is intentional… even when it feels slow, even when it feels unseen. I’m learning that the waiting seasons are where the real work happens. While I’m looking around at everyone else blooming, God is still working my soil. He’s strengthening me, stretching me, and building roots I didn’t even know I needed.

And if I’m honest, some of what feels like delay is probably protection. There are things I’ve prayed for that I might not have been ready to carry yet. God knew that. He saw what I couldn’t.

So now, when those feelings try to creep in, I don’t ignore them… but I don’t let them take over either. I bring them to God. I ask Him to shift my perspective, to show me what He’s teaching me instead of letting those thoughts pull me away from Him. Because that’s how the enemy works… through distraction, through comparison, through making me question what God has already called good.

But I’m choosing differently.

I’m choosing to trust that God hasn’t forgotten me. That He’s still writing my story in His perfect timing. That just because it looks different doesn’t mean it’s less.

Healing, for me, looks like catching those thoughts and turning them into something honest. Something surrendered. Something rooted in truth.

Because at the end of the day, I don’t want envy to steal my peace. I don’t want it to blind me to the life God has already given me.

And I definitely won’t let it win. 🌿